It's me, Mizukiis Sorrow, writing here. I'll tell you one thing:
Mizukii really loved her boyfriend. Did for many years. But when they were in a relationship he just made her miserable and regret those years she wasted on someone she still did know so few of. He changed her for worse and I could feel she felt numb for a long time. Probably still does.
But I'm only Sorrow. I don't know that much of her.
- You do know enough, certainly!
As for me, Regret, I only know of darkness. No feelings or whatsoever. Just bitterness.
Everyday I can see those scars and memories he left. Like that one day he called her so ugly. Her, Mizukii. Really, her friends always say she's so beautiful, at least that's what Happiness told me. But Sorrow, you know that Mizukii feels really ugly herself, right?
- I do, Regret. Her heart told me.
She feels really scarred. She does not know that everyone is special and I can't tell her...because I'm not her heart. Not Happiness. Not Love. I'm only Sorrow and I can only feel her Sorrow.
- But I know of her beautiful sides! I'm Happiness after all! I also do know all those precious memories of her. Like, how he kissed her on her cheek in May? How he smiled at her for the first time. Held her hand! Aren't those happy moments? There's no way Mizukii could regret those, right?
- That's because we all can only see those things onesided. Everyone knows a little bit from the whole story and thinks it's the whole. Sorry for being so negative, but I'm Loneliness after all. I know a part of what Mizukii felt like all along too. She felt left alone by all her friends, by him, even by her parents. That surely was a hard time. When her parents divorced. When her friends abandoned her. He called her ugly and useless and bad marks in school were raining on her.
- Stop right there, Loneliness. Happiness won't allow you to go further! Sure, he must have left something besides happiness. But...isn't it better to laugh at the passed time instead of crying over it? I feel so helpless myself sometimes, for not being able to tell Mizukii so many things. Only halfs.
- But, Happiness...!
- Be quiet, Loneliness. See who's coming! We'll probably get all our answers now.
- Regret! Are you siding with Happiness?
- I'm not siding with everyone. I'm just saying that ...that feeling will be able to tell us everything best. Isn't that right, Sorrow?
- Loneliness...Regret is right. Bow your head, now. And listen good. It's Love, after all.
- Yes, it's me. Love.
- What has happened to you?!
- I have turned black, Loneliness. But you know, that does not matter. Regarding Mizukii...those are her true feelings. The sorrow, the regret, the loneliness, the happiness... all those are the sides of her that turned me black. Turned herself black. But you know what she is screaming the loudest right now? "I hope I will be able to fall in love again- and that I will be able to let go of this darkness. I hope that one day I can look at those years and smile at them like they were just me tripping." And, can you see that? That white light over there, Loneliness? This really small, flickering light?
- I can, Love...what exactly is that called?
- It's a new feeling growing inside of her. And it will join us soon, I'm sure. As for it's name...
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