Vent

How can I forget you when you gave me so much to remember?
I've tried so hard to hold on to love you. But I can't. I've spent all that time waiting for you, waiting, waiting, nearly drowning in time.
So now you've come to pick me up, but how do you want to do that if you can't swim?
We're together and I'm lonely, I'm broken, I just feel so helpless I could kill you.
Is this the best it gets already?
I don't want this.
Loving you all this time was happy, then it got sadder day by day. And now you wanted to get a hold of me I've got enough of standing still. Of being silent.
How can this love of mine fade so easily?
I'm sorry for doing this to you. Bet you're not sorry for doing this to me that makes me react like this.
That's just the way you are and I fell in love with you like this. To tell you the truth:
You being like this, it wears me out.
Why? Why am I the only one that hangs on tightly and has to cry? Why am I the only one getting so worked up about our relationship and you're all easy-going? Why does nothing ever change?
Tell me.
Tell me.
Tell me why am I the only one in pain?